Well it has been some time since I have posted an entry, so I have forced myself to sit down and put some words together
It has been very busy a lot has happened, well the first big thing is I have got married to my wonderful wife and tied the knot so to speak.
Nui has also left the UK to look after her Mum at the village as well as sort out our house.
So that has left me here to organise things and I must admit, it is a lot harder than I thought it would be. When I was in the Army I use to move about every 2 years and I thought it would be easier than I am finding out. I suppose the fact I have been here for over 25 years, longer than I have ever been in one place in my life, than as well as the thought of leaving my son here while I move to the other side of the world.
I have been a single dad for a long time almost 19 years, so I have always been there for him and it has been very hard trying to sort my emotions out before the move.
Dont get me wrong, I am not regretting the move, its just a lot harder than I thought.
I have given notice in leaving the flat, and have organised a company to come in the mid of January to ship my stuff from door to door to my house in Chiang Mai.
The thing is, they cannot tell me the cost of the shipping as they, and me, have no idea how much i will be shipping. I know in my head, but I have no idea how many square meters or feet it will be. That will determine the final price of the shipping. So based on a two bedroom flat, with no white goods or furniture, it will be a maximum of £1500. So I have tom make sure I have enough funds to cover that, which I have m but have extra for the possibility of having more items.
What I have found hard, is, well I have figured out, after a lot of thought, is the total change or movement of my foundations.
We are all happy with our lives when things are secure, unchanging and your life has stability at its core.
My core has changed in all aspects.
My home, which I have been here for a long time.
My relationship with my son, changing from a boy to a man as well as leaving him to look after himself, leaving the nest so to speak.
My relationship with my now wife, she is not here but sorting things out in Thailand.
Some friends letting me down, when I thought they would be there for me the way I was there for them.
My job, I was told that I would be staying at the airport until I leave, but then told they did not need me, so I have been going from one job to the next, feeling unsettled, and trying to find a job that pays enough and I like.
So all these things have made my life shift from stability to the unknown.
I cant wait to get to Thailand, as I can then relax and all this organisation and moving would be behind me. This will be mixed in with dread , leaving my son.
So in February when I am sitting in my seat on that plane, I will be a wreck, lol, emotions all over the place.
I have also found out my true friends as well, some have ( As our US friends would say) stepped up to the plate, and others have let me down.
So a week of so before I fly to Thailand I will pop into the Thai Consulate in Birmingham and get my marriage Visa. I have also renewed my passport, even though I have 5 years left on it, as I will need more pages, as leaving the country every 90 days, as a requirement for my Visa, I will be using up a lot of my passport pages.
Well I will try to keep you updated when I get a change to tell you how things are going and whats happening.